Sometimes I imagine myself yelling at a little me in the loudest voice I can and as angry as I can. For some reason it makes me happy. And sad. And scared.
So I just spent this entire day not leaving my dorm. Well. I left for 45 minutes to eat dinner But for breakfast/lunch, I ate soup and Mac and Cheese Inside Easy mac is great
And honestly? I don't miss the human interaction It's odd... I spent the last few days wondering what on earth I could do that would involve a social life And I actually brought myself to the point of being depressed about it Then I remembered
I don't NEED people. I want them, but I never need them
Not to sound emo and depressing, but I found that this day was a really good charging day for me. Cuz, honestly, people drain me. So quickly. I love you all to life and beyond, but I just don't have infinite energy =]
So, thank you to the people in my life who force me into social situations, for without you, I would be socially inept. And thank you to those who leave me alone when I leave, either physically or mentally. If I didn't have y'all, I'd be dead half the time And thanks to those precious few who pry into my life with an annoyingly sharp mind. It makes me not emo
...Wow this kinda sounds like a goodbye letter.... That's depressing But heck, I needed to say thank you to all of you anyway, so here's that And I don't think I'll be leaving anytime soon. Bodily speaking
Well painted passion
You rightly suspect
Impersonation
The dumbing down of love
Jaded in anger
Love underwhelms you
No box of chocolates
Whichever way you fall
And if I tell you
Lover alone without love
What will happen
Lover alone without love
Will you miss him?
Lover alone without--without love
No, no I'll get this
I want to treat you
You're still not famous
And you haven't struck it rich
Underachieving
'Cause no one's receiving
This tunnel vision
It's turning out all wrong
And if I tell you
Lover alone without love
What will happen
Lover alone without love
Will you miss him?
Love alone without, without love
Music is worthless, unless it can
Make a complete stranger
Break down and cry
And if I tell you
Lover alone without love
And what will happen
Lover alone without love
And will you listen
Lover alone without, without love
Without love -Frou Frou
It's a really peaceful song, and I like it a lot =]
Anyway. I feel tired of life. Like it's too much Too many people are grading you on how cool you are Everyone wants what nobody really has =\
And I feel totally insignificant in the giant world I'm in now And I'm scared because I know the giant of a world I inhabit now is only an atom compared to the new one I'll be thrust into in a few years Too many changes and too many differences in skills and abilities
I wish I was able to stick with my violin for a few more years without complaining so much to my mom Maybe that would have allowed me to take trombone lessons Which means I would be better than I am now Instead, I'm stuck with an inferiority complex that convinces me I am the worst here
I've found that the only thing I enjoy anymore that I can actually do well in is dancing Swing, Ukrainian and the occasional random bouts of hip hop
Oh, I got to teach my Music Education class how to waltz =] That was funny
